okay, maybe I shouldn't have taken a picture with the foxi-est lady in the world...*close eyes*

Gave me the world, to take it all away

All you left me was yesterday
And this space in my heart
Now it's slowly tearin’ me apart
I'm takin’ all that I learned from you
I'll make it something I’ll never do
I can't be who you are
You taught me how to break a heart
 
P.S: Dear, it's your fault I'm hooked again.
 
-chelle-

I am officially in LOVE!

Honestly, I have never known or seen anything more beautiful or magnificent than the ancient sites. There is something so EXTRAORDINARY about Ancient History. The sights of something so old are, to me, literally breathtaking- the stones, the mud, the pottery, and the bones. Worth more than the modern sights in Dubai or USA or wherever else in the modern world because the modern world derived their technologies, their ideas from the ancient world, but sadly only the minority seems to have realised that.


To be able to travel around the world to see all the historical sites- beautiful!


I’m really left at awe at all of its beauty that I have lost all the words to describe how I feel when I watch these sites from afar (my TV). I can only imagine (at this point of my life) the feeling of walking through these beautiful sites: Catalhoyuk; Turkey, Fiume; Egypt, Oregon; USA, Israel, Chan Chan; Peru, Jericho, Ephesus; Greece, Mayan; South America, Angkor; Cambodia and Jerusalem- I think I would just break down in tears the second I realise I’m placing my foot down on any of these sites.


And now, a mummy found in St. James (something) church in freaking LONDON!!!!



Thank God for “Out of Egypt” and “Mummy Autopsy” on Discovery Channel today!

Thank God for this great passion (regardless of how many obstacles I've got overcome).*faints*

-chelle-

It is becoming more confusing and heavier by the topic but there is just this great sense of happiness and excitement boilling from within me.

I do feel insecure and incapable compared to my senior classmates but it is because of their great knowledge about E that encourages me to do better.

It is interesting that "the more complicated it gets, the crazier I fall in love with E."

off to finish studying before test. *nervous*

-chelle-

New addition to my every growing "baby" family (LOL) :

Say hello to T-10! It looks better real life and I got it for fun! (Ok, I shouldn't be wasting money like that... *innocent smile*)

-chelle-

Here's a true story:

She holds on to the pain because she fears that if she lets it go, if she lets the wound heal; it would mean that she's letting go of her dream- her passion, her desire- the one goal she must achieve before she is laid to rest.

The look in your eyes tells me that you have changed but you did so at the expense of a loved one- disgusting!

YAC 2, thank you so much for these BEAUTIFUL bangles!

-chelle-

What one does on her birthday...*big grin*

11 books and counting...

-chelle-

19th Birthday!

Thank You for the 19 years!

People! I went to Tarbush in KL and though it wasn't exactly Egyptian food but it was Middle Eastern and Hallelujah I LOVE THE FOOD!!!!Amen.  Hehe.

How am I going to spend my birth- day this year: full day of Egyptian stuff! Best present I can give myself. hehe.

-chelle-

*squeals* second goal in a row!

Even though the questions become harder with every passing week, I really do revel in the challenge to understand all the confusion and to answer the questions properly, and though there is seriously A LOT, I know I'm on the right path.

that's me on the red board! hehe.

birthday celebration top...

ok, I'm officially a nutcase for handbags!

-chelle-

"passion never dies and will become a reality when the time is right." those are the words spoken texted by my mummy to me.  *runs and hug her*

me: mummy! *hugs*

mummy: what do you want? (in sarcastic tone)

me: nothing.

mummy: ok, what did you do then? (sarcastically again)

Anyways, I'm so happy that my assignment received great reviews especially from my lecturer. *pat self on the back*

Now off to study somemore... 2 1/2 more days to celebrating!

-chelle-

Ok, before I start hitting the papers, books and 'blackboard'...I'm rushing to complete this week's assignment which is about predynastic pottery (that's a first!), I shall bloggy a little:

Making notes

Spot the 'blackboard' (behind all that MSN boxes...hehe)

It's actually Milo but in a Nescafe cup...make sense? No...oh well. =P

Music, me saviour!

And all these rushing (it's 11 pm already) because I'm going for a serious shopping spree with me favourite Dragonfly, tomorrow:

Chelle,

I'm hiding...

Pain.

-chelle-

Copyright of Egypt Manchester blog.

Tell me what should I do when all I want is so far away, barely within my reach?

Honestly, it is not ok. I'm not ok. Everything's not ok.

I hate to hear people say "oh I miss home" "oh I rather be back home" "I can't wait to come back" etc. My reply to all of that crap is bullshit! Can't you see how blessed and fortunate you are to even have the opportunity to go overseas?

A says "think about it this way, you are even more fortunate to know what you exactly want in life. you have the goal and dream in life not like them."  I agree but I can't deny that the pain and frustration are so.....!

-chelle-

They are two people whom I know I can always depend on for support, strength and laughter:

-chelle-

Blank.

With a heavy heart and a solemn face, she drove to the unwanted destination. As she parked her car and walked into the compound, with all her might she held back the tears that were waiting to just flow. As she walked, she wished and prayed so hard that it was all just a nightmare. When she entered the destination, she put on a fake smile but she knew her eyes told a whole different story. The walk back to her car was even more painful as she knew that her nightmare had finally become a reality. She told herself she would wait till she got back home to the comfort of her bed and Pooh, but the tears refused to obey.

Tell me, what should she do.

the pain instensifies with every passing second.

someone please tell her that it is only just a nightmare...

-chelle-

Lost.

The pain is undoubtedly excruciating...I fight will all my might just not to let even a single tear drop.
It literally is unexplainable.
Part of me understands but the other part is so confused and in pain- I'm stuck in reality and my ideal world.

I actually feel so lost about my future. I don't know whether entering another MU is the right choice either but at this point, it's the only choice I have. I don't know what I'm to do after the three years in MU; where will that all lead me to?

Behind that angry and fierce facade is a girl in extreme pain, she doesn't know where to go and what to do anymore.

left alone standing in the rain
so that no one sees the tears I shed
waiting for that Someone to take me by the hand
and lead me to where I belong.

P.S: thank you for all the hugs!

- a never ending broken heart, chelle-