fearless, breathless and everything in between.

Unfortunately, you've gotten me head over heels.

At least I'm being me again.

-chelle-

Messed up.

I feel like the wounds have healed but the scars continue to haunt and scare me.

I have let the past go but I still cannot move forward.

What is so hard about a smile or acknowledging you?

Where is that fear coming from?

This is so stupid and silly. This isn't me.

-chelle-

What a great relief.

Life has all the ups and downs but He has provided three super cool angels to help me through it all. (And one of the downs happened tonight when I got a call that had me dashing out immediately.)

 

We need a new picture, Sa.

My 'siao-est' partner in crime, though we're living separate lives.

My 'newest' angel, who let's me spend too much time at her crib. Haha.

And I wonder whether I would want to be in your shoes...then again He has place my being here for a reason and for that, I would say "no".

-chelle-

unfailing love, amazing grace.

And You saw me
When You took a crown of thorns
And Your blood washed over me
And You loved me
Through the nails that You bore
And Your blood washes over me

Everyday You amaze me.

-chelle-

Many people make the mistake of thinking that dreams cannot come true, but they can. You have to believe, and know that they are more than just imagination.

— Zahi Hawass

-chelle-

There has to be a reason...

Someone asked me two days ago "why are you so happy?" and it got me thinking. I have definitely been happier the pass month than I have been in a while...so why is that so?

I'm not where I really want to be, I'm not studying exactly what I want to...I'm not able to fulfill my passion to the max now...and yet I still feel a great joy each and every morning that I awake (except for yesterday when I had to take Sa to the dentist at 9 am..).

I really have no proper logical reason to state why I'm happy except for "He is the reason'.

He let me go through hell the last six months of 2009 and it broke everything inside of me and though I am still recovering, still learning, still not fully satisfied...He has made everything so worth it. 

Through hell He stood by me and taught me that though I may not be able to get to where I want to immediately, I'll always have Him.

He makes studying in Monash SO MUCH BETTER. He makes the essay on Egyptian art SO FUN...He makes me realise that...

He is the reason why I am so happy.

-chelle-

Mah soul sista!

Dear soul sister; S,

 You so need a big hug but we are a little far apart so pretend that every time you feel upset or discourage or just down, I am there to give you a hug and know that I have got your back 1 million %. 

 Love always,

 -chelle-

One month and His faithfulness continues.

A month has passed by with Him being there for me everyday, with Him answering a very important prayer I prayed a month earlier. 

Though this was never in my plan, He has made it beautiful and light and happy for me. To be honest, I have never felt happier since SPM results. 

I see things from a new light and though I am still aiming to go abroad but I know that He will get me there according to His plan (not mine).  

But yeah, I feel blessed because my parents can afford it, support my decision and allow me to do both, to be able to do something more steady and to do what my heart desires to do more than anything else.

-chelle-