Listen and obey.

You spoke. I listened. I obeyed. It felt absolutely right.




It was lots of fun!

-chelle-

I learned...

Here is my life
Here is my heart
I give to You
Here is my love
Here is my all
I give to You

Lord God Almighty!

simple words but what an impact!!!

-chelle-

Dedicated to many....

THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES






the 'bestest' of them all, Sarah.




best shopping buddy, Gabby.




grandpa and clown of the century, Mal.




Don.




good day mate, Aly.




my favourite but most annoying Dragonfly and Squirrel.




"hope you're doing well in uni, dear!"


19 years have passed and I know who are my truest. =D


-chelle-

Unbalanced and pain.

Why do I have to be so freaking observant? I noticed that as the days pass, you couldn't be bothered to reply my messages if it has got nothing related to you. But when I ask something or when I receive a text from you, it is all about you. What happened to the balance we had?

How does one react when one witnesses another person's dream coming true while theirs remains..unchanged..not easy but

"For I know the plans I have for you...plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future" Jeremiah 29:11

Thanks M for that!

So I still don't know how to react to her dream coming true while I just sit and wait for mine and listen to her talk all about herself, but at least I know, though painful, His plans are always better and He's my secret weapon in this climb.


just keep swimming- Dory, Finding Nemo.

-chelle-

Was being a TV addict last night till 4 am, specifically for channel 555 cause there were TWO programmes about EGYPT! *jumps up and down and hyperventilates* =P

Ok, there is nothing more beautiful to me in this world (period) than ancient Egypt- from its pyramids (Seti 1) to temples (Abu Simbel), from the drawings on stones to the beautiful hieroglyphs found in the tombs, from the ways they built those monumental stone buildings to its ridiculous architecture found more than 90 feet below ground, from their way of living to the mummification process and theories of the afterlife, from its very beginning in 2630 BC to the very day Arab took over. It is simply SPECTACULAR and it takes my breath away every single time.

"Having a dream isn't stupid, it's not having a dream that's stupid." Cliff Clavin, Cheers.

I just realised that I don't have a plan B, I only have a plan A; which seems to me, at this point, isn't going to fall into place anytime soon. So now what?

I have known my whole secondary life that I want to study Ancient History and then become an Egyptologist and lately, I have also felt that I should become a lecturer and researcher simultaneously.

However, now it is all messed up and I am sort of lost about what other subjects I want to study. It is either between two and I am more inclined towards one, but I know my dad is concern about the job prospects later on. He asked me just now, "if you come out with that degree, what are you going to work as?" and I didn't know how to answer, and I realised that why I couldn't answer was because I have never thought about working as anything else.

How stupid of me! Oh well...pushing this crap aside, here are some pictures I took today while going for my own "bukit cahaya"; where I ended up seeing two real stupid slimy long creatures. *runs and screams*















Lace LBD. (girls, what do you think?)

-chelle-

I LOVE IT EVEN MORE!!!

b

Caution: I'm going to sound like a mad person as you scroll down to read this post.



Temple of Artemis, then.









Temple of Artemis, today.

I don't understand how could the people back then even demolish such a magnificent building; which is said to be the largest ever Pagan Temple in the world. Sadly, due to the fall of a pagan worship and natural disasters, one of the seven ancient wonders of the world has ceased to exist physically but its history continues to live.

Paul (yes the disciple) walked through this beautiful wonder...can I be his friend?

-chelle-

When I can't have you, I have E.




found this lying around in my big stack of pics.

-chelle-

I don't know but I think I maybe falling for you,
Maybe I should keep this to myself till I know you better,
I am trying not to tell you but I want to,
Scared of what you'll say,
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling.

love Colbie Cailat's latest song.






-chelle-

Determined yet fickle.

Either it's funny or stupid that I know a 100% (x1 mil) what I want to do yet I am 50-50 as to what my second option should be.



more concern for her than for me even though I didn't do as well as she did...maybe because she placed everything into that plan and had no back up.





use me as You want to in her life.

-chelle-

No feelings.

"If I work hard for what I want, if I keep trying after I've been turned away, my dreams can come true".

I'm not proud, happy, sad, disappointed, satisfied...I just feel...nothing.

What does that mean?



I miss my long hair...

-chelle-

I know what I want but...


I will trust in You.


everyday it becomes harder to forget you.


-chelle-

"But there's a voice inside my head that says you'll never reach it."






I'm going to be strong, I'll just keep pushing on.









I don't know what to do,
I think I've fallen for you.


-chelle-

I discovered something during YAC discussion tonight;

"Men are more likely to reconcile with their wives who have cheated on them while women are unlikely to take back their unfaithful husbands."

Now, you must be wondering why we talked about this when we are suppose to be learning about 'pleasing God'...well it's called...ah crap! I forgot what that word is!

Oh well...hehehe.

sorry for the half past six post. hehe.

-chelle-

"Concerning Egypt itself I shall extend my remarks to a great length, because there is no other country that possess so many wonders, nor any that has such a number of works that defy description."

Herodotus, 440 BC.

it is as if I meant to do so.

you're always on my mind.






-chelle-

*sobs* please get out of my mind.


I guess I've fallen for you.



-chelle-

I want it SO BADLY!



-chelle-

What if?

Maybe this was meant to be,
Maybe now it should be me,
Been dreaming of this forever.
But I'm feeling so confused,
It's hard to see what's right.

And it's breaking my heart,
Tearing me apart,
It's impossible to choose.
What if I don't try, what if I do?
Everything I've dreamed of is right in front of me.


If I win what would I lose?
How could I learn to live wondering what if?

I don't want to realise after it's too late
and see it all pass me by.

If I do, if I don't,
Will I ever really know,
What the future could hold before it slips away,
It could be a chance of a lifetime.



Don't want to look back and wonder 'what if'.



One of God's many beautiful beyond description creations:










-chelle-

All I ever wanted.

On the surface, am distracted by you
But deep inside of me, am aching for it even more and more.

I can only bear to imagine the day she and I walk into the airport and only she hops into that big bird that will help transform her dream into a reality. The selfish side of me will want to cry (big time) because she's the one going and I will want to hold her back but a bigger part of me knows that "if you love someone, you've got to let them live" and she's one of the most precious people in my life- even more precious than my dream- hence, I'm going to be more happy than sad on that day.
I know that she will be one of those who appreciate the opportunity given to her because she had to work hard for it.

All I can do now is wait for my results, wait for their reply and wait patiently for God to decide for me. However, I just feel deep inside of me that there is where I am suppose to be. Why else would I have this burning desire and love for the past 8 years?

all I ever wanted is to live a unique dream.





-chelle-