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My new baby...but I have to wait a little while longer because baby doesn't come originally in black.

P.S: I cannot wait!!!!

-chelle-

Paris Hilton is not the dumbest person!

Had English Literature class yesterday and we are studying 'The English Teacher' by R.K Narayan. It is, in short, a story of an English Indian teacher and my lecturer is from India too, so we were talking a little bit about India and their traditional customs.

Has anyone heard of "arranged marriage"? Because even my sister, who is 13 knows exactly what that means and guess what an 18 year old girl has NO CLUE OF WHAT IT MEANS.When my lecturer mentioned "arranged marriage", the girl said "OMG! YOU MEAN NO DATING NO LOVE! I'VE NEVER HEARD OF IT!" I was sadly sitting behind her and I had no idea whether or not to laugh or cry...so I decided to choke myself! I was well basically making faces and actions while the rest of the class looked at me as if I'm the entertainer. We all made a conclusion that Paris Hilton is not the dumbest person in the world anymore but this girl in my class! I can't believe I know someone, who has NOTHING in that big head of hers. Which stupid idiotic dumb blur 18/19 year old person does not have a clue as to what arranged marriage is.

You may say I am mean or whatever but too bad I've got the freedom of speech and action. I'm like so LOST FOR SUPER WORDS to describe the dumbest dumbest stupidest person I sadly know!*faints*

-chelle-

Once in a lifetime

Mummy asked: "If you had the chance, would you finish your three years here then only go overseas to do your Masters or do your final year overseas and continue your Masters there?"

Me said: "Go overseas!!!!!"

My dream has always been to study Ancient Egyptian History and the best place to study that is obviously none other than Egypt. But sometimes I wonder whether this dream is all too much a fantasy than a dream that can become a reality. I've also always dreamed to further my studies, no not in Australia (I highly doubt I'll get the experience and exposure that I want from there) but in UK.

If I'm given the chance to further my studies overseas, I would jump right at the opportunity without hesitation. Of course, I'll miss my family and friends but thank God for the internet and all. I don't know...some people really have different views from me and I just think that this is an opportunity of a lifetime.

-chelle-

Here I come....*ah choo*

Okay, I agree he isn't top in the looks department and neither is he as popular as Rihanna, who was also suppose to come down on 13th February (but thanks to Chris Brown she couldn't.) but I think he is musically inclined and it is his music that matters and not anything else.

*oh yeah, before I forget I'm down with the flu and headache so I may not exactly make sense.

For those of you who did not know Jason Mraz is coming to town on the 4th of March and Mixfm and Hitzfm were or are giving out free tickets. My bestie and I are more loyal to Mixfm and she overheard that last Friday was the last day they would be giving out the tickets. Before that, she has been blabbing about winning the tickets and going for the concert, and we tried on Wednesday night but someone else won.

So like any other normal Friday, when to college- for Lit and Tort- and she already told me "whatever it is we must be in the car by 6 and I hope got long jam". Seriously, even though she's not a Christian, God seems to answer her prayer too. *eesh* So my Tort lecturer let us off at 5.45, as if it made any difference she talks to herself most of the time while the rest of us pretend to listen and study by ourselves with the mp3 on *oops!* Got into the car and lo 'n' behold IT WAS JAM!!! I was already down with sore throat and kind of cranky, so the jam only made things worse but she is my dearest friend, so I just kept quiet while she was being hyper (usually we take turns or on most days we are both hyper; which is not a good scene for other drivers...hehe)

So we were listening to Mixfm while my friend complained as to why they were taking so long to promote the tix and I was looking around hoping not to fall asleep while waiting for the stupid cars to move their butts. And when entering Subang from Federal, I heard Mraz's song "You and I" playing along with the starting of a Maroon 5 song, I shouted "Call now!" and we tried a few times but couldn't get through- must be because both of us were dialing at the same time- then there was a police car in front, so I had to put my phone down. And suddenly my friend said, "Hello?" I waited patiently but full of excitement, and she started talking to Sham and then she smiled biggyly and then raise her hand for a high 5. I was driving! She always does this sort of thing while I drive assuming that I've got three hands- two to drive and one to punch her etc.

So, in short of that long long babbling above, she won two tickets worth RM 208 to go and watch Jason Mraz at Stadium Negara on the 4th of March!!!! And she is bringing me along!!! SO love her now...though of course we won't admit it to one another...hehe.

-chelle-

If I were a boy....or a girl

[Beyonce:]
If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what i wanted then go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted, and I'd never get confronted for it
Cuz they'd stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
'Cuz I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cuz he's taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

[R. Kelly:]
If you were a boy
Then, girl, you'd understand
You need to stop listenin' to your friends
Love, respect, and trust your man
So I go to clubs with the guys
And sometimes flirt with the girls
I should be able to roll out, as long as I'm comin' home to you
And give you the world

But you're not a boy
So you don't have a clue
How I work and pay the bills
How everything I do is for you

[Beyonce:]
I'd listen to her
'Cuz I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cuz he's taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

[Beyonce:]
If I were a boy (If I were a girl)
I would turn off my phone (I wouldn't play games)
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that I was sleeping alone (girl you that's wrong)
I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go
'Cuz I know that she'd be faithful
Waiting for me to come home, to come home

[R. Kelly:]
But you're not a boy
So you can't understand
You are not a perfect woman
And I am not a perfect man

[Beyonce:]
I'd listen to her
'Cuz I know how it hurts (and I know how you feel)
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cuz he's taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed (said I'm sorry)

[Beyonce:]
It's a little too late for you to come back

[R. Kelly:]
But I can't let you go, 'cuz I'm too attached
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you're just a boy....




Boy oh boy! I love love this version! I first heard of this version while driving but it was the ending and I thought it was someone singing like how Marie Digby did with Rihanna's "Umbrella". Beyonce's original version is sort of boring but this is fun!

Lalalala

-chelle-

He has a hand in everything that I do.

Do you believe our God has a hand in everything we do in our lives? I do.


He let me go through a very tough period; which I absolutely did not understand why. However, through the experience, He taught me that His love and trust are the most important and although man can hurt me and betray my trust. He won't. He really helped me through a year that was very trying emotionally and slowly taught me to rehabilitate my broken relationship with the other. I learned to forgive though it wasn't easy. He taught me how to care with His love and not mine. But somehow, deep inside I still could not let go completely. God placed me and the other in an awkward situation about two to three weeks ago, with a group for a discussion- a topic; which was related to the reason we parted ways.

He allowed a year to go by with hardly any changes and He decides to make sure I wake up at 4 am one morning and in two hours He changes my perspective and feelings for that person.(This is not an easy thing for someone like me to do- when I'm firm on something, I don't budge.)

With His help, that person has mend my broken heart.

-chelle-

At 6 am

you've somehow mend my broken heart.

-chelle-

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH

*squeals* He's got one of the best pair of deep set dimples!!! *squeals*

-chelle-

Saying goodbye seems to have become easier

I wish I could shed a tear when I said my goodbye to you.

-chelle-

A "Valentine" thought

"I don't believe – and this goes for anybody – your man shouldn't love you for one day out of 365. He should love you 365 days out of the year. I want Valentine's Day every day." American Idol's one and only freaking successful country superstar, Carrie Underwood, said that and I totally agree.

Sometimes I feel that Valentine's Day is overly commercialize and guys buy presents for girls (and girls expect presents from guys) just because it is supposedly the most romantic day of the year. However, how can Valentine's Day be the most romantic day of the year if you are getting married in that year too? Shouldn't your wedding day and your honeymoon period be the most romantic time of the year then?

I was listening to the radio, just the day before Valentine's, and one male caller said, "Girls should also contribute to the day if they want guys to give them something because it is not easy for guys to outdo themselves every year while the girls don't do anything." I half the time disagree with the male callers but this time around I could not be more surprise that I actually found myself agreeing to the man's statement. I really believe that it is true.

Why should we girls be the ones getting all the presents and be pampered on that day when the guys have loved us girls, sometimes maybe even more than we do, and cared for us without complaining? If you have someone then I think both parties ought to be equal without expecting anything more- unless the guy or girl wants to surprise their other half- because that is what I think love is all about.

Love is about being equal in love, in trust, in loyalty, in commitment, in a promise for a lifetime together.

P.S: However, sometimes my term of being romantic and doing something for me is merely a fantasy or a dream that no man can fulfill, so then, what should I do? Lower my standards? I say 100% hell NO! Because those are my standards, they are not too high nor too low, they are mine and they are perfectly fine.

-chelle-

I didn't expect it

It was small and simple,
But a sweet gesture indeed,
I may not know who you are,
But I have to say 'thank you',
Because I think that's what Valentine's Day is about
-simple and thoughtful presents-.

-chelle-

A little too much to say "goodbye"

Sometimes we fight,
Sometimes we cry,
Sometimes we laugh,
Sometimes we ignore one another,
Sometimes we live in separate worlds,
But we ALWAYS support and love one another.


Saying goodbye to the others wasn't painful but we've been through a lot and I guess it just isn't easy for me to say "goodbye" to you. (You're the first I would shed a tear for.)

-chelle-

What I've been up to....

I tried studying...like seriously! BUT I guess my will power just isn't that strong...for goodness sake it's Egypt...who cares about Literature!

-chelle-

L.O.V.E

Love. There are so many ways to define this four letter word.

"Love is a word with many connotations."

"Love is placing others before your own."

"Love is a feeling of strong attachment induced by that which delights or commands admiration; preeminent kindness or devotion to another; affection; tenderness; as, the love of brothers and sisters."

"Love is patient, kind, not jealous or boastful or proud or rude, does not demand its own way, is not irritable, it keep no record of being wronged, does not rejoice in injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out, never gives up, never loses faith,is always hopeful and endures through every circumstances."

Whether or not those are merely quotes or how people truly feel, I'll never know. For me, I think that the last definition is the best for what I call true and perfect love; which no human in any possible way can ever receive or give.

Why do we always fall for the yearly Valentine's Day and anniversaries that thousands of people believe we have to celebrate or it means we don't love our partner?

Can we ever truly love a person 100%? Anyone who does love someone a 100%, in my opinion, has got to be living in a fantasy world because no one is perfect, therefore, if we love someone a 100%, we are bound to get hurt, to be taken advantage of and misused. Why then do we love when we know all the dangers these four letter word may or will impose on us?

Do we love because the Bible says so? Do we love because someone says it's right? Do we love because we genuinely and sincerely want to love that person?

Does love come before trust? Is love acceptance? Is love trust? Is love loyalty? Does it mean when you love someone, you trust that person?

What if the person hurts you, do you love him or her back over and over again? How do you love someone who keeps hurting you?

I think no one can ever give me a love I'll consider to be the true and perfect love because no matter who I meet or whoever I've met are not perfect. Even the love I give cannot be perfect because I am one, who does "keep a record of wrongdoings" and does not trust. The love I have for Ancient Egyptian History and Porsche can only last me so long.

Despite all stated above, I'm speechless when I remember that no matter who hurts me or whoever I've hurt, I have one person who can actually give me that true and perfect love. He died on that cross for me even though He knew at that moment all the wrong I would do in the past, present and future.

-chelle-

Ramblings...

Putting my right foot forward
Reaching out and holding Your hand
Preparing my mind for the challenge
Praying for a servant-like heart
To do Your will in my life.


P.S: "Goodbye" is merely the end of one chapter of the book of life and walking into the second chapter of the book of life.

-chelle-

Safe Journey Home

I want to thank God for bringing me safely back home as I drove back alone.

Because I saw something and my mouth fell wide open :0 and my heart skipped a million beats!!!!!




















-chelle-

my historical comfort for stress

She may not be as well known as Queen Cleopatra or as beautiful as Queen Nefertiti, yet till today she still remains the most powerful Queen Pharaoh of Ancient Egypt.
It was not her looks but her charisma, her bravery, her confidence, and her intelligence that allowed her to hold on to the Egyptian throne for 20 years. This may not be as long as other pharaohs like Ramses II and Amenhotep III (who ruled 67 years and 38 years each) but keep in mind, she was ruling in a male-based monarchy.

Queen Hatshepsut was born to King Tuthmose I and his wife, Aahmes. She was the favourite among three children and as if Fate decided to stir things up for Egypt, her two brothers died and hence, she was in a unique position; one rarely heard of- she became Queen of Egypt. However, initially she shared the throne with her father's half royal son, Tuthmose II, who according to statues and monuments of him, appeared to have suffered from some skin disease. Therefore, it was not surprising that Tuthmose II died after only three to four years of ruling. Queen Hatshepsut, who was his half sister and wife, did not have a son to reign as king. However, his son with a commoner, Tuthmose III, was according to law, the next in line to the throne. Again, it seemed like Fate had its own idea of a female pharaoh, Tuthmose III was too young to become king, hence Hatshepsut took over the role and began ruling till her death in 1458 BC.

Many may not know much or even have heard of her. This is because her nephew or half son, Tuthmose III, ordered all her statues and every recording with regards to her to be erased. It was almost customary for the Pharaohs of Egypt to each have a temple built during their reign and Dier-el Bahri was constructed during Queen Hatshepsut's reign as pharaoh. It was nothing but a spectacular sight and till today it still remains as one of Ancient Egypt's famous buildings. Sadly, this temple was not left to spare by Tuthmose III.

It was not easy for Hatshepsut to rule, hence, she used two devices to ensure the legitimacy of her position. The first device was to emphasise that she was a favourite and personally selected by her father, Tuthmose I, to become ruler. Secondly,in her temple, Dier-el Bahri, are written words of Khum, the divine potter, who sculpted the forms of the gods:

I will make you to be the first of all living creatures, you will rise as king of Upper and of Lower Egypt, as your father, Amon, who loves you, did ordain.

The above statement is a more doubtful device compared to the first, especially since Queen Hatshepsut is claiming to be a direct heritage of Amon, the Sun god. However, the both devices helped establish Hatshepsut's role as pharaoh and she ruled for a great 20 years.

Although, her nephew, Tuthmose III, ordered for everything of hers to be erased, Queen Hatshepsut is still known today. She has been made known once again when her mummy was discovered in 2006 and her story is slowly being revealed to all.

-chelle-