Super- Tort.

I FINALLY UNDERSTAND NEGLIGENCE!!!!

For those who don't know what 'negligence' is, well it is the basis of Tort Law and the hardest topic of the lot. For the past 6 months, I have been pretty much struggling with this topic and of all topics it comes out every year without fail and it is somehow related to all other topics; which of course made it so much harder for me.

However, thankfully God intervenes at exactly the right time. At first I thought it was a little too late but today's lecturer was fantastic (not the same normal lecturer), he actually made it all so interesting and it is stuck in my brain!!!! Well, I hope it remains in my brain until Monday :)

Today's lecturer is like superman! He has not taught AL Tort Law for 4 years and he explains it to us without looking at his notes as if he has been teaching the subject his whole life. He teaches Public Law for Yr 1 and Land Law for Y2 and is a practicing corporate lawyer- being a full time lecturer already takes up so much time, I can't imagine his schedule! Not only that, his first degree was Maths and Physics and before teaching Law, he was a Maths and Science lecturer!!!!

I am totally at awe because I could never understand how such people could comprehend both the art and science area so well!

I am Yours and You are mine.

-chelle-

Broken.

I wonder what you think when I talk about my dream, my desire and my goal in life. It seems to me that you think I am mad, I am only 19 and I don't know what I am talking about, that I have no clue about life.

It can be so frustrating at times when you look at me with those eyes. Don't you know that I understand you through your eyes? You don't have to lie with a smile or your words because your eyes tell me that you think I am just selfish, heartless and that I don't value other things in life.

I do! I know who are the most important people in my life and I don't need your negativity to bring me down, to tell me that I am wrong.

I know that I should ignore all your unspoken thoughts and feelings, but I am only human and I will feel discouraged. I am different, yes, way different from you...so different that sometimes I just feel that we cannot connect.

I finally know what it means, to let someone in, to see the other side of me, that no one ever does or will.

-chelle-

1:6

1/6

Today's was like a History paper- easy but I cannot help worry that I maybe doing something wrong. Then again, I have done all that I could and shall now leave it to Him.

After exam, I went to a chiropractor, who is a South African and is friendly-cute...*wonders whether I can get a ride from him when he goes back to visit Africa* Hehe.

One challenge. DONE.

-chelle-

No turning back, No mistakes.

I feel agitated, nervous and confident all at the same time.

Six papers, five grueling days,NO mistakes.

I can do no wrong. I cannot give up. I have to do what I have to do. For the love that I will never give up on.

It is going to transform from an imagination to a dream to a reality.




-chelle-

Titleless. (did I spell that right?)

I put on my dark wash blue jeans this morning and "wala!"
It is actually looser!!! *jumps up in joy*
But my lefty still aches even after I took pain killer.

Oh well, can't always want everything my way.

P.S: 1 more full day to Contract Paper.

P.SS: I am still thinking of you but not when Egypt is in front of me.

-chelle-

Denial or Reality?

*writes slowly with a 'cacated' left hand*

Here is my list of the required attributes I want in the man of my dreams (if it is long, please dial 012-640 87** and request for the name Andreanna Ten Maven; that's my bestie,A).

1.God-fearing
2.Confident
3.Determined
4.Knows what he wants in life
5.Good working ethics
6.Respectful
7.Well-mannered
8.Presentable
9.Loyal
10.Understands that Egypt has a special place in my heart

Okay, those are just the few that I can think of right now- I have others i.e knows how to cook, good vocals, plays either the guitar or drum etc.

But, why bother having this stupid list when it is highly unlikely that I will be able to find someone all so perfect? Sometimes I do wonder, 'is there actually a soul mate out there for me?' I wish I can know that answer now and then I don't have to worry about this stupid love stuff.

Then again, I have Egypt. Seriously, people I am in love with this country's ancient history and it is almost completely unexplainable and I don't mind that. I have said before to A, "when you ask me why I love that guy and I have nothing to say, you'll know that I have found someone so special" because that is true. I think for me, to know that I love someone or something is when I am lost for words.

Or is that just an excuse? Am I trying to use Egypt as an excuse to avoid falling in love? Did I make that stupid list to avoid love? Am I really that afraid of testing the water?

All I know is that I would rather choose Egypt than a guy because I would rather go through the pain and challenges to achieve a life-long dream than to go through a broken heart because of a living person. I can say that I would choose the dead over the living. (hehe)

Then again, am I thinking about all of these just because I am in denial? I have to admit that yes I am in denial and it is very much because I am afraid. I know that it will never work out, that it isn't meant to be. Then why do I have all these thoughts?

P.S: it is just my thoughts and my feelings.

-chelle-

Uh oh

*ouch*
My left hand is in pain.
*sobs*
I hope the pain goes away soon.

plus typing and sms-ing and carrying stuff with my right is just weird.

-chelle-

Waiting

I am patiently (and at times impatiently) waiting for the day that I can also say this: What is important to me is that I have the great good fortune to spend my days doing something I love, and being given the opportunity to make a difference in the world. Zahi Hawass

-chelle-

Stonehedge

Those interested in History should check this site out http://www.ufos-aliens.co.uk/cosmicstonehenge.htm. My thought after reading that: "Who in the right mind suggested that they should rebuild an ancient ruin?!" I don't think that we should touch what has been left as it is for the world to see unless it is at the verge of destruction. Nonetheless, restoration, yes, but rebuilding it without the original blueprint, no.

-chelle-

Half re-vamped!

The blog is still a little funny and ugly but I can't help what I love *points to the far right side of the laptop screen*

do you see that big statue? hehe.


-chelle-

Confused.

Geez, I never thought that I would be thinking and going through these all over again because of you.

-chelle-

Season 8

America is found guilty of mistake to attributes!

How on earth could they have chose Kris Allen, someone who is not even close to being as talented as Adam Lambert or Danny Gokey or Allison, as the next American Idol?!
Simple answer to that ridiculous question is that he won because of his supposedly good looks; which I have to admit that "girls you have to be literally BLIND!". However, I will not say that Adam is all that great looking either but at least he is beyond talented!
When I heard that Danny was not one of the finalist, I was so; so disappointed because I believe that it would have been a better finale between Danny and Adam- at least it will be worth watching as both men are evidently talented in their own individual ways.
I agree with what Simon said once, that Kris is going to do well because of his looks and again American Idol is about finding the next big talent not a beauty competition! I highly doubt that Kris will do as well as Danny or Daughtry or Jordin or even close to Carrie Underwood!
I won't say that he isn't talented at all but he is only average. He has not been consistent throughout the show unlike Adam, who kills the competition every week, Danny, who is extraordinary in his own way especially with ballads and Allison, who is a 16 year old with a killer vocal.
In short, I am very disappointed with the results because Adam deserves it more as he is way more talented and would definitely do well in Broadway and I believe that Kris won just because of his attributes.

I cannot stop thinking about you but I don't want to see you face to face...

-chelle-

A thought after another song.

In the chaos, in confusion
I know You're sovereign still
In the moment of my weakness
You give me grace to do Your will
When You call I won't delay
This my song through all my days



Every time it is played, my heart melts because I've never felt such a great love-none but like Jesus' love for me.

-chelle-

Updates

Pictures after a while...









exam mode





normal hangout after classes







where A diligently 'studies'...she says she needs a break (of 4 hours!)





while yours truly gets back to study mode after lunch





Occupier's Liabilty Act





girls, do you have these many stuff in your bags?





bless whoever it is that created MP3! It's my constant companion!





I sort of like but don't like the laugh





A and I before class started...or was it during class?





Break time with Cerlyn!!! She's such a joy to be with!





And we indulged!


-chelle-

Beyond comparison.

Unlike him, you lack the intense, full of emotion eyes, the cute and heart-melting smile, the dimples that are ever so deep, and his too die for butt!!!

-chelle-

Another thought

Every time I feel too lazy to study or unmotivated, I recall what the song says and I remember what I'm doing it all for.

-chelle-

YUMMY!

I bought a new lip balm!!!

It's from the brand Cocoa Butter and its flavour is 'Dark chocolate with peppermint'! It definitely smells like it and I have to resist from eating the entire tube!

-chelle-

Happy Mother's Day.

She is my inspiration to be a strong and independent woman.




Every time the song plays, my mind drifts back to only one thing: my heart's desire and it motivates me to work harder although I know that it is a very unlikely situation.


-chelle-

Stand up.

If the mind keeps thinking you had enough,
But the heart keeps telling you don't give up,
Then don't give up and just stand up!


-chelle-

Two thoughts after a song.

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The rest of the world left me to suffer alone,
But with You and Your strength, grace and love,
I will survive.
________________________________________________________________________________________

I don't know what tomorrow brings,
But I have no fear,
For You rescue me day by day.



I feel so blessed to have someone I can rely on despite everything that comes my way and I wish that she will eventually be as blessed as I am.


-chelle-

The emotions and thoughts seething through me.

*pushes aside the books*

After yesterday's youth, I don't think any guy in the right mind will want me as their girlfriend (well not like I really bother cause none of them is of my taste).

"For me, absolutely no guy shorter (or younger) than me."
"If you are just flirting for fun and she falls for you, you are hurting her feelings and that is wrong."
"Until I study Egyptology and go to Egypt, I wouldn't want to marry."

The tone I used to say the above and many other things, I know a few people will be thinking I have either gone mad or I'm just downright rude. I think, well it is my opinion- I have neither gone mad nor am I rude, I am just ME.

I have learned from experiences and from my friends' experiences that no guy is worth your time if he is just fooling around with you or you fooling around. Why waste the time, credit, and your emotions if nothing is ever going to blossom between the both of you? I like what one of the girls said, "I will choose a guy whom I can see a lifetime with." That is definitely my choice too except that she has found someone and well, me...erm my imaginary one is all the way in UK. (hehehe).

My sister even asked me "Jie, aren't you afraid of growing up alone? (with no husband, that's what she meant). I answered, "NOPE." I have fallen very much in love with God and Egypt- I wonder how much more love I have in me to give it to another person.

Come to think about it, it may seem that I'm just afraid of taking that risk of getting hurt and well, yes that is part of the reason. At the same time, I just don't see the point. Right now, I'm having a hard time balancing all that I have, if a guy comes along- when will I have a time for myself? Not only that, I'm at the beginning of my tertiary education- finishing A Levels in 3 weeks *slaps head* (crap stress rebuilding again)then I have to make another big decision in my education life, and if I am given the chance to go overseas *looks up to heaven and prays* :P I don't want to be tied down to someone who may end up wanting to live in Malaysia or going to some other country to study -long distance does not work for me *wonders how all the pyramids and mummies are doing now*.

One guy said before "you've thought so far ahead about us..."
I have to agree with him because I have thought all the way to if I do, do Egyptology I will be spending lots of my time in Egypt and I don't want to tie someone down or if I have children, I wouldn't want them not having their mummy around for a long period (I think if I do have children, they will be more than happy).

Missing having someone to talk to and all, well of course I am only human so yes I have those thoughts especially when I'm drown in love songs but at the end of the day, my heart longs for no guy more than it longs for God and Egypt.

-chelle-

Bored.

Life is seriously even more boring nowadays. My updates on Facebook and Twitter are "studying...books...exams...etc". I cannot wait for it all to be over and then the two months of break!!!! Then again, I'm not all that prepared yet...*sighs*


listening to Taylor Swift's 'you belong to me'.

-chelle-