FIFA 2010

Last match of the season....so who will this year's winner be?

Though I wish that they had won instead:

Certainly becoming very fond of its history- the first country, who's history I consider modern, has attracted me especially all the ones involving bloodshed and criminals. =P




Just when I decided to let go, you come back.




-chelle-

It's better to stop right now than to see oneself fall in much deeper...or have I already?




No I don't think so. That's the best thing about the solid rocks that surround my heart...I don't fall and hurt like I use to.




God and AE are the perfect antidotes.




-chelle-

God, please help me help her.


-chelle-

As expected it was just the two of us. 


Visited the MET museum in NY yesterday:

And thanks to Gabby, I've a new favourite past time....so if I become more psycho it's all her fault. =)

-chelle-

Let's see how the past plays out in the future tomorrow:

And I do wonder whether tomorrow will be better than yesterday....

-chelle-

9.45 am: My heart broke once again.

Sometimes I just wonder "what if".....and I let my mind wonder to how amazing it would be to wake up every morning knowing that I get to spend my day with people who understand my heart's desire....but the tears that fill my eyes brings me back to reality.

-chelle-

I love every single moment I spend with you.

-chelle-

Q and C.

Went out with Q to Empire:

Can't wait for our psycho trip next week cause I know you girls will help get my mind off things.



-chelle-

Q.MY.V.C

Just realized that the blog is full of words and no pictures. So introducing my three new psychopaths whom I miss terribly right now. 

Q! <3

One major thing we share in common.

Three musketeers and...

MY, who's always missing. *hugs*

V, what can I say?

And yours sincerely...pretending to be cool. =P

What can I say except that I have been truly blessed by Him through the three of them.

-chelle-

"At first I could see nothing, the hot air escaping from the chamber causing the candle flame to flicker, but presently, as my eyes grew accustomed to the light, details of the room within emerged slowly from the mist, strange animals, statues, and gold-everywhere the glint of gold. For the moment-an eternity it must have seemed to the others standing by-I was struck dumb with amazement, and when Lord Carnarvon, unable to stand the suspense any longer inquired anxiously, "Can you see anything?" It was all I could do to get out the words, "Yes, wonderful things."

- Howard Carter, on the discovery of the tomb of Tutankhamun, November 1922

One day, it will be me.




For safe keeping, I'll place solid rocks on one another and build a pyramid around my heart.


-chelle-

What I want this summer (UK's summer, that is):

"How to read Egyptian Hieroglyphs" by Collier and Manley.

"Fantastic Mummies Open Up The Secrets of Ancient Egyptian Mummies" by Taylor.

"Nefertiti: Egypt's Sun Queen" by Tyldesley.

"Conversations with Mummies" by David.

I know where my two month allowances will be going to....Kinokuniya.

P.S: learning a dead language is certainly harder than I expected. 

-chelle-

I have push the old aside and am ready for the new.

-chelle-

After 8 weeks of accidents, pain, craziness and everything else a normal university student would experience, I AM DONE!!!! EXAMS ARE OVER and I can return to my first love; AE. 


"10 Things I Hate About You":


1. I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair. 
2. I hate the way you drive my car. 
3. I hate it when you stare. 
4. I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind. 
5. I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme. 
6. I hate it, I hate the way you're always right. 
7. I hate it when you lie. 
8. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. 
9. I hate it when you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call. 
10. But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all. 


Thank You God for FIFA WORLD CUP!!! Go GERMANY!!!


-chelle-

Kind of nervous about tomorrow, it is the first time I'm sitting for my uni exam. 

*crosses fingers and toes*

-chelle-

The stress game is on but I will fight for what is mine.

The stress game is on but there is a joy within me; just knowing that I am still able to do what I want to do.

The stress game is on but most importantly, I know that You are there for me through it all.

-chelle-

Know that you put a smile on my face like no one else has.

-chelle-

MAY

May, by definition, has not been a good month. Filled to the brim with assignments from five subjects has not been easy to cope with but for my future, I do it willingly and with great friends, it becomes easier. That isn't what made May an uneasy month.

It is what happened on the 1st and the 22nd that have made it a terrible month. The 1st was a first time experience; one that I told myself I would never want to have happened again and swore that I would be more cautious on the road for others and my own safety. It drove me into a phobia I never had since I began driving two years ago. But now, the thought of driving at night isn't something I plan to do anytime soon.

Then when I had just gained back my confidence, I go through the whole horrid experience again, making it worse for my parents; who are amazing for being so understanding and not once scolding me at all.

Overlooking the phobia of driving (at any hour of the day) and the torn muscles, I have to say that regardless of what an awful month it has been, I have one very important person for just being there for me through it all, that is You! What would I do without You...I don't know.

You have even blessed me with parents who are truly understanding and only care about my safety and overlooked the fact that the accidents happened in the span of three weeks, and for the three amazing friends that I could immediately text and call, and felt at peace immediately. 

You are my strength, my love, my grace, my protector and most importantly, my God.

-chelle-

All I ever wanted....

I have been looking forward to tonight's Discovery Channel show at 9 pm but something came up and it is as if I lost a date with a super cute guy. 

These are what I miss seeing on the TV because that's the closest I can get to seeing it face to face...now. 

-chelle-

Cloud 9 (only E can do so).

http://www.swan.ac.uk/egypt/conference010.htm


Thanks Swansea for making my day.  :)




-chelle-

The mummy who bought her daughter a present on mother's day eve.

The woman who inspires me to be all I can be:

Love you lots mummy and thank you for

Love always,

-chelle-

It's somewhat undeniable that it has been awhile that someone has made my heart beat faster, caused butterflies in my stomach, made me blush and smile like a fool....then you came.

But what am I suppose to do next?

-chelle-

There is this uneasiness that I feel when I think about you, but I have to admit that you're the first in a long time who has made my heart beat just that little faster. It just feels so odd and weird and too much all at the same time.

Why do I do?

-chelle-

fearless, breathless and everything in between.

Unfortunately, you've gotten me head over heels.

At least I'm being me again.

-chelle-

Messed up.

I feel like the wounds have healed but the scars continue to haunt and scare me.

I have let the past go but I still cannot move forward.

What is so hard about a smile or acknowledging you?

Where is that fear coming from?

This is so stupid and silly. This isn't me.

-chelle-

What a great relief.

Life has all the ups and downs but He has provided three super cool angels to help me through it all. (And one of the downs happened tonight when I got a call that had me dashing out immediately.)

 

We need a new picture, Sa.

My 'siao-est' partner in crime, though we're living separate lives.

My 'newest' angel, who let's me spend too much time at her crib. Haha.

And I wonder whether I would want to be in your shoes...then again He has place my being here for a reason and for that, I would say "no".

-chelle-

unfailing love, amazing grace.

And You saw me
When You took a crown of thorns
And Your blood washed over me
And You loved me
Through the nails that You bore
And Your blood washes over me

Everyday You amaze me.

-chelle-

Many people make the mistake of thinking that dreams cannot come true, but they can. You have to believe, and know that they are more than just imagination.

— Zahi Hawass

-chelle-

There has to be a reason...

Someone asked me two days ago "why are you so happy?" and it got me thinking. I have definitely been happier the pass month than I have been in a while...so why is that so?

I'm not where I really want to be, I'm not studying exactly what I want to...I'm not able to fulfill my passion to the max now...and yet I still feel a great joy each and every morning that I awake (except for yesterday when I had to take Sa to the dentist at 9 am..).

I really have no proper logical reason to state why I'm happy except for "He is the reason'.

He let me go through hell the last six months of 2009 and it broke everything inside of me and though I am still recovering, still learning, still not fully satisfied...He has made everything so worth it. 

Through hell He stood by me and taught me that though I may not be able to get to where I want to immediately, I'll always have Him.

He makes studying in Monash SO MUCH BETTER. He makes the essay on Egyptian art SO FUN...He makes me realise that...

He is the reason why I am so happy.

-chelle-

Mah soul sista!

Dear soul sister; S,

 You so need a big hug but we are a little far apart so pretend that every time you feel upset or discourage or just down, I am there to give you a hug and know that I have got your back 1 million %. 

 Love always,

 -chelle-

One month and His faithfulness continues.

A month has passed by with Him being there for me everyday, with Him answering a very important prayer I prayed a month earlier. 

Though this was never in my plan, He has made it beautiful and light and happy for me. To be honest, I have never felt happier since SPM results. 

I see things from a new light and though I am still aiming to go abroad but I know that He will get me there according to His plan (not mine).  

But yeah, I feel blessed because my parents can afford it, support my decision and allow me to do both, to be able to do something more steady and to do what my heart desires to do more than anything else.

-chelle-

To Know Your Name

Should be getting my research going in the freezing library but the song just keeps playing in my mind (and ear). 

It just makes me want to start worshipping but gotta do it all silently. Ironic how He decides to put me in this mood at the most inconvenient (did I spell that correctly) place. 

But,

Cause I know You gave the world
Your only Son for us
To know Your name
To live within the Saviour's love and He took my place
Knowing He'd be crucified
And You loved, You loved
A people undeserving!

How is it possible that He chose to love and sacrifice for a person so undeserving? 

-chelle-

Stress? Complain?

I

It is that simple: when you love what you are doing, there is no understanding of the word "complain" and "stress". You just simply enjoy all the work given and embrace the hectic life ahead of you.

Again and again, I will say "thank You for this passion!"

-chelle-

Enjoying the buziness that uni life is offering, right from the start. :)

Loving Psychology and though International Studies is a little too modern for my taste, it is still History but as I'm doing notes for Psych while talking to my Egyptology friends, they remind me of my bigger dream. 

Can't remember that psychologist name but he mentioned something about a pyramidal need and that you can aim for a big thing but you have to focus on the smaller ones before reaching for the big one. And more importantly, Maslow says that we should pursue the things that we are good at. 

I know what I am good at, He has blessed me with a talent like no other and the course I undertake proves that and I won't let it go.

Instead of feeling awful and upset, I feel light and happy and I know it is because He is helping me through every single day for the rest of my tertiary life.

Again and again...I serve an AMAZING WONDERFUL GOD!!!

-chelle-

Not about my love for history.

It suddenly dawned upon me that some 'past' you just want to erase them so that you don't have to keep living them every year in the future. But the past happens because...(ok I don't know why the past happens) but I know that I learn from all the past.

Sometimes, I wish we never had a past so that we don't have to live the future together. But, you are always going to be a part of my life and there is nothing I can do to change that.

 

should be doing my reading assignment but the thought just came and bloggie here I am.

-chelle- 

I see the rays of sun.

First day of classes: American Music and Popular Culture, and Film and Television Studies- all I got to do is go for a concert and watch multiple movies! 

Now He has a way of making my first day a good one. Excited for tomorrow because it is the beginning of me studying Psychology so that I can drive A up the wall and into the ceiling. Haha.

At the end of the day, I'm just so thankful that He was there with me through it all and just made it better. I serve a totally friggin' awesome almighty God!!!!

-chelle-

A fresh start?

It's a new beginning. It was 'O' week- basically the general introduction to the university, a tour, the library, the 9 buildings and 6 levels each (good exercise) etc. 

How do I feel about it? Let's just say I have got this superbly amazing Friend, JC, who spent the entire time just being by my side and holding my hand through the first day and the second and the third. He is truly an amazing Friend but more importantly an even better God and Saviour.

Now all that is running through my mind is that I have got to learn to balance everything and I am excited to start studying again especially one subject known as Psychology but doing it here, not so thrilled about it but like I said above, I have got Him and that is one thing I cannot be more thankful for.

 

into the mirror I look and all I can say is "I lay every burden down...at the foot of the cross."

-chelle-

Sucker for romance.

I think the right person is the one who inspires you to become a better person, to achieve all that you can achieve, to be who you are and the one who has all the faith in you.

Nicholas Sparks is amazing!

-chelle-

Scream

 Funny how Disney movies or songs inspire me to reach further out to touch my dream or remind me that I should not give up on what matters in my heart.

Guess it does sound somewhat cheesy and maybe childish but they have many movies with great in-between the lines meaning that I have learned to listen or watch through each movie.

The day a door is closed
The echoes fill your soul
They won't say which way to go
Just trust your heart

To find you're here for
Open another door
But i'm not sure anymore
It's just so hard

Voices in my head
Tell me they know best
Got me on the edge
they're pushin', pushin',
they're pushin'
I know they've got a plan
But the balls in my hands
This time its man-to-man,
I'm driving, fighting inside

A world that's upside down
Spinning faster
What do I do now? Without you

I'm kickin' down the walls
I gotta make 'em fall
Just break through them all
I'm punchin', crashin', I'm gonna
Fight to find myself
Me and no one else
Which way? I can't tell,
I'm searchin', searchin', can't find the

Road that I should take
I should! turn right or left is
It's like nothing works without you

I don't know, where to go, what's the right team?
I want my own thing. So bad I'm gonna Scream!
I can't choose, so confused! What's it all mean?
I want my own dream. So bad I'm gonna Scream!

-chelle- 

losing.

There’s always going to be another mountain I’m always going to wanna make it move, always going to be an uphill battle, sometimes I’m going to have to lose”

That last word of this amazingly beautiful song has never been allowed to enter my mind. It seems to me that if I acknowledged that ending part, it would mean I would be giving up on my dream, my desire, the peak of that mountain. It has been a struggle for the pass two years and yes, it is somewhat easier to understand the situation I am in now but somtimes, the slightest word or thing triggers that big space in my heart and tears start flowing down. It can be so frustrating not being able to achieve your dream- having to wait for a long more while, to have to do something else besides what makes you so genuinely happy- that hurts like hell. Most of the time, it hurts more than a betrayal of a friend or a love one. Yes, it really means that much to me.

But this post isn’t about me ranting over and over again how much I j’adore my dream, how much I desire to see it come true right now. No, it is about me accepting where I am right now and what I will be doing for the next three years; studying in Monash University. As much as I hate the thought of it, but like the song says “sometimes I’m going to have to lose” but then again as the song continues “it’s not about how fast I get there, it’s about the climb.” I learned from watching Hannah Montana, the movie again that I have to accept where God has placed me for now- He knows what He’s doing. Maybe I’m not ready (though I feel so ready) but He knows me best (as cheesy as that sounds, that’s the truth. He created and mould me, so He does know me best.)

1st March 2010 marks the real beginning of where I will be for the next three years, a nightmare which will eventually subside into a wonderful experience and then I’ll be able to achieve my dream. Psych, International Studies and Gender Studies are all super interesting subjects that I have always thought of studying but they are nowhere near the place E has in my heart.

“I have got to be strong. I have got to keep fighting, keep climbing and keep the faith.”

-chelle-

Do you know the feeling of reading a simple message or a text from someone and it simply makes your day so much better even if the day is nearing to an end? I do.

God has bless me with a group of people that love me for who I am and this group of people, though small in number, is the best thing in life. I know I can say all I want about Egypt, History, Bones, achieving my dream etc, but without their support, their love, their "you go Chelle!" my dream would not be able to come true because they are the ones driving me towards the dream, reminding me always that I have what it takes. Not only that, their love, support and care is a small reflection of how much God loves, supports and cares for me for He has brought them into my life.

She is one of those people in that small group. She has known me since I was in diapers, had my first crush and though we have had our time apart, the day we had (yesterday) and the little messages that carry so much reminds me that, at the end of it all, I am truly bless to have her in my life.

S, you too have made my day so much better and me so much happier!  

P.S: Tomorrow is a different day. I will be stepping into what I would personally call "a little nightmare" especially since it is far away from my dream. But I have got to take this window since all doors are close. sucks.


-chelle-

Dedicated to S.

Today was that kind of day where you had a gut feeling that everything was going to go fine and it did, thus, making your day a fantasticc one. 

Why today was different from every other day? That is because I got to spend it with someone I grew up with, someone I grew to love more each and every day (no I'm not a lesbian), someone who despite the time apart still knows me best and that someone is my dearest bestie, S. Sadly I don't know how to hook the scanner to my laptop (the actual reason is I'm too lazy to get my ass off the bed) to show you a picture of us. =D

I spent the day shopping with her and her brother's girlfriend and mum- it was so much fun. All the laughter we shared and the "I'm fat" comments. Haha. Will treasure this day forever and am looking forward to our next outing.  

Love you always S!!! And know that I WILL ALWAYS be there for you. *hugs*

Here are the things I bought today (warning: bad quality pictures)

Clearly am an addict for handbags.

 

Another LBD, though the pattern on the waist is not visible. Oh well. 

Love this one!!!

Different touch to my favourite outfit, tank tops.

-chelle-