1st October 2009

Woke up an hour earlier than I should actually have- you could say it was the excitment etc but in fact, it was my poor math skills; I miscalculated the time difference.

I am finally studying again and on an even way; way better note: I am studying something I have always wanted to.

Today is definitely one of the MOST important days in my entire life because it marks the beginning of me transforming my dream into a reality and I have someone so awesome, fantastic and amazing to thank for all of these: my Saviour, my God! who of course has blessed me with parents, who believe in me and my dream and are paying for this course (in pounds, may I add).


I'm seriously speechless...just feel like jumping up and down, up and down and so wanna hug all my friends who have been supporting me. *grabs bamboo stick and runs after dragonfly*


P.S: What can I say, what can I do but give my all as an offering to You, who truly deserves it.




P.S.S: Happy birthday my beloved four-legged sister!!! I love you, Fatty!


-crazily happy chelle-

I cannot stop checking the blackboard = this just shows how crazy I am and how impatient I am about starting my 'relationship'.


-chelle-

Totally stoked!

I cannot even begin to explain how happy, excited, thankful, grateful and nervous I am about starting a new chapter in my education.

This is something I have wanted to do since form 1 and the passion has just grown even more the pass two years. To those who have offered your support and the few of you that I have disturbed yesterday and today, thank you for just letting me blab on and on about it...love each and every one of you!!! *hugs*

It is like falling in love but so much better. There isn't any worry about whether the relationship will end, I just....*screams*





Seriously cannot wait for 1st October!!!


Thank You so much!!!
You have opened a door for me and there is still another door open, so You decide what is best for me.

-chelle-

Earlier this month, I wrote about changes and doing different things this September and well most of them have come true but the most exciting and most nerve wrecking one begins on the 1st October 2009.

Filled with so much excitement and a great deal of 'nervousness'. I'm nervous about studying using a very different method but at the same time, it just feels so right and I'm so thankful that He has allowed this to happen!!!







My first class is on the 1st of Oct and according to the calender it says 0100- now I have to decipher whether they mean 1 am or pm.

Oh I so cannot wait to start studying something I have desired for so much but the itsy bitsy readjustment is time- I'm going to have start living in UK's time zone.


*jumps up and down*

-chelle-

"oh quickly send me a reply saying that I'm academically and financially registered, so that I can access the Blackboard!!!"

reading through the various emails they have sent and the documents sent along with those emails are making me so nervous...I have never done something like this before and I'm so scared that I won't do well...well actually I'm more nervous that I won't be able to access the Blackboard before the course starts!!!


God helpie please!!!!

-nervous wreck chelle-

Serving You is truly worth it.

Name above all names
You are worthy of all praise
My heart and hands will serve You
For You are a great God!





Today's the big day! All the hardwork many of us have put in WILL produce results! No matter how tired each of us feels...I personally, just remind myself: 'I'm doing this for someone who deserves to get the very best from what I can offer for He truly is a great, great God!


P.S: I hope and pray that it will all go well for those overseas ALFA-ians.

-chelle-

Don't say I didn't warn you.

Before I release my frustration, this is my 300th post! Whoa! Either I have learned to talk too much or well...started thinking too much too. Haha.

Now...a reminder to all who reads this post: This is my blog and I have the freedom to express my thoughts and what I truly want to say, so if you have any comments about how I am blasting out here, close your mouth and don't even bother trying to tell me about it cause you'll just be sorry for finding trouble with me.

"no commercial value"
"don't have to go already la."
"history. what's the use?"

And oh yeah: 'Dude! don't say one thing and then turn 180 degrees around ok...no point trying to take back what you said!'.


Let me get this perfectly straight with you people, History means a lot to me...it will always mean more to me than you idiots! Just because I am only 19 and I am from a generation that is -generally- materialistic, does not mean I am like them. Don't start thinking I chose to do History because in my 'sad sad' brain I think that History will bring me lots of money. I want to study History and work in that field, in the future, because I personally believe that History- the dead- has SO MUCH to offer and teach us. We learn what not to do and what to do from history. The plus point is that it makes me so happy. Not once have I ever worried about whether I will earn a lot of money from doing this.

I could have chosen to be a lawyer- I know God has blessed me with a good memory so Law would seem like the easy way out, then again I don't want to be 40 and working in the court with the urge to just kill the client I am representing or working behind the freaking desk and complaining as to why this job is so boring...even if I am paid tons of cash!

I want to be 40 and taking in all the sand, cold, dust...all that the dead has to offer. That I know I won't complain because I have chosen to do something that I am so deeply passionate about.

So you dushbags...thanks for making me frustrated and all cause you nimrods are the ones reminding me that "the struggles I'm facing and the chances I'm taking" are all worth it!

-chelle-

tired.


then again, I remember that it is for Him so I better be doing the best I can.


-chelle-

GG's best selection!

this guy has a pair of serious gorgeous BLUE eyes!!! *faints*

-chelle-

I think you are crazy to even consider that option.
Wait and see when it does not turn out...you will absolutely regret if you go with that option.
One year...
And you may not be able to work at a place you like or get the job you want...


All I can say now is that you had better think wisely before making a serious stupid mistake.

I agree that when it comes to your own dream, you have to do what it takes to achieve that dream but do something within your capabilities and within REALITY AND LOGIC!

-chelle-

Home.

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home

May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky, I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

The song has been stuck in my mind the whole evening. I guess at the end of it all, home is where the heart truly belongs.

But a home does not need to be a physical building or a mega family. It could be a feeling, something big or something small, a memory or just one person. Whatever you feel is home, then that is your home.

This is my home:














P.S: loving rascal flatts at the moment.

-chelle-

Professional vs Personal

When I am working, I am one who does NOT stand any nonsense- I expect things to be done properly and people to do their part as they have agreed. Professionally, if you do your best and get your work done, I would not have much of a problem working with you but if you slack and just want all the glory of the title you hold and not the responsibilty, I suggest DON'T EVER WORK WITH ME. Not kidding, I will make sure you get it right in the face for pissing me off. I believe I got the "I'll tell it to your face' thing from my parents.

I just wonder those who are...(I'll say it flat out) damn right lazy and rather delegate and not lift a finger up, I wonder how they function in their personal lives. I believe how you work is a reflection of who you really are, to a great extend.

For me, I do my best to separate professional from personal; which means I may be disgusted as to how you work but if you are a friend, then of course personally, I still love you and will be there for you but professionally, sorryla but I won't be on your side.


*just had to let it out after reading something.

P.S: Check out 'Jill and Kate plus Kelly Clarkson's version of "the climb' on youtube or cerlyn's blog!'

-chelle-

All emo-ed up.

Just read my "bestie of the bestest" blog and it got me thinking about 'best friends' and 'true friends'. What is your definition for the two terms? I don't exactly have one definite answer for either one but I have a great example of a 'best true friend' and I have to say that; that's S.

It seem to me that despite the fact that the last time we met up was this year's chinese new year and it wasn't like we were sitting down for hours telling one another everything or that we have been texting and keeping in touch with one another frequently. However, I remember the feeling of just looking through all my old pictures and among thousands of pictures, one stood out the most to me and that was a pic of S and me.

I felt so touched and blessed that I have met so many, many people in my life who have become good friends of mine and a handful that have become people that I can just run to about anything but I feel even MORE bless that He brought S into my life at such a young age. Looking at the picture of us and recalling everything that we went through during our childhood...WHOA!

We may not have helped each other a lot during our teen years but...*speechless*

She, too, wants to embark on a new chapter in her life and desires to also achieve her dreams and I so want that for her.







I think that at the end of it all, a 'best true friend' is one who will support you regardless of the situation but at the same time she/he will always be honest and sometimes words are not needed...just pictures and a photographic memory to remind you of how bless you are to have that someone in your life.

-chelle-

Sometimes...I just feel like grabbing you and shaking you till reality hits you!


But....






-chelle-

Sometimes I reflect as to how you and I react in our similar situations and I notice that I am more calm than you are. Regardless of the outcome, deep down in my heart, I know very well that He has my best interest in mind and I need not be overly worried. But you, you are so different- you are so absorb in an ideal world that almost seems so unrealistic and yet you cannot seem to come out of it.

If it doesn't work out for you, I pray He gives me the wisdom and strength to help you get through the heart wrenching period and if it does, I wish all the best for you.

So thankful for the great news two days ago and I know there is still another bigger obstacle, then again life without obstacles is really not life.

Hence,





Here is my life
Here is my heart, I give to You
Here is my love
Here is my all, I give to You

So, what can I give than my everything
What can I bring that would bless You, Jesus?







I won't give up until You tell me to.


-chelle-

A happy daughter!

He has definitely made my day by getting them to say this:

Dear Michelle

We are pleased to forward herewith an emailed copy of the conditional offer of place from the University (Auckland) making you a conditional offer for your application. Please take note of the condition(s) stated in the attached copy of the conditional offer of place.

Upon submission of the document fulfilling the condition of offer, an unconditional offer will be made to you.





I am closer to what I have always wanted but just like Miley's song "The Climb", there's always going to be another mountain and she is certainly right. I have passed one mountain and now am facing another, a more improbable one but then again He has led me all the way to this door, so I won't give up until He tells me to do so and I will continue trusting Him. Just like G said, "He open door for you, you scared it's your feelings...than you rather He open window ah?"

It has been a month plus and I'm back to climb and fight for what I want...once again.

For those who know what that little *ehem* thing is, please pray with me that I will find a way.

Thank You so much!

-chelle-

Mild madness...

Had lunch with an uncle who toured Egypt some four years go. Just listening to him talk about his experience visiting the Cairo museum, 10 days cruise along the river Nile while taking plenty of stops to visit the amazing sights brought tears to my eyes (literally).
I know it is going to be dirty, sandy, dusty, and hot but imagine what awaits among all that sand and dust! Beautiful ancient structures that have withstood the test of time, magnificent treasures from ancient times which includes lots of mummies aka bones!
When I do get to tour Egypt, I want to go alone cause I can only bear to imagine listening to "it's hot" "waitla" "can we go back and rest?" "do we have to?" and the 100% question: "chelle, where are you?"

By the way lady, I may not earn as much as a businessman or a doctor but to me, it is about finding a job that I love and feel strongly for and also one that allows me to give back to society.

I think I should start taking more pictures since I keep talking about Egypt and feel kinda bad for blabbing about it all to you guys...*innocent smile*

Eesh!...I give up! I couldn't find a layout or blog skin that stood out or had all the applications that I wanted. Hence, back to the normal one.


*falls down...ZZZZZZ...Ben Barnes!!!!*

-chelle-

UH OH

Uh oh! I just changed my blog skin/layout/template...ah! whatever you call it and I realised something! My older posts and comments are GONE! NOOOOOO....this is what happens when a tech dummy decides to change her blog skin without asking sister for help.

Oh well....

P.S:addicted to "Evacuate the dance floor" by Cascada.
P.S.S: I want my black baby 2 now...hints
P.S.S.S (am I even allowed to have so many of this?): Off for facial...Cerlyn going to see my red and blotchy face! Haha. *runs and hides*

-chelle-

Sometimes what you want isn't what you need.
But how do you know what it is that you really need?

You left me standing in the rain
So who says I can't be single
And that I have to mingle.

-chelle-

Egypt madness ahead!

I have been thinking (yes I do actually use my brain) the whole evening about Egypt (no surprise there...haha) and an idea suddenly popped into my mind- more like a vision for my new room actually.
For those wondering what 'new room', well my family and I will be moving to a new place sometime next year, so yeah.
Anyways, back to my vision *bursting with full of joy*, I can picture my room walls covered with everything of Egypt well, maybe except the mummies cause my parents may not exactly approve of dead bodies painted on my walls. but yeah, the other stuff like the Giza pyramids painted on the largest wall while the other walls are filled with paintings of Abu Simbel,Dier el Bahri, Seti 1's tomb, Luxor temples, my name in hieroglyphs and statues of different pharaohs!

I can just imagine waking up every morning to the beautiful Giza pyramids staring back at me...oh it will be like prince charming looking at me...actually better than that!





Reality check: I should probably just go and hunt for a puzzle set of the Giza and hang it on the room's wall and also the picture of King Tutankhamun drawn on real papyrus; which my dad bought from Egypt. Yes, he went to Egypt when I was 16 WITHOUT ME!

Oh... but if I could only do so, it would be totally WICKED!!!!

*pulls self back down to earth*


Here are a few pictures (compensation for the above madness):



Sakae Sushi!



A squirrel and a panda!



A dragonfly and a panda!



Most gorgeous guy of 2009! (real life)



My manicure friend! :)



Tong!



Li Jen!

-chelle-

Word of advice,A: Keep climbing, keep trying, keep your head held high and never give up.





Question: Do we look alike?


I wonder how it would be when you finally leave...

-chelle-

This is why I don't want you to come so close.


when your dream doesn't seem to come true...just trust Him though it may hurt.

-chelle-

Malacca.


Bentong. Loving this pic!




faints.

-chelle-

3 months have passed and I am officially bored of having such a freaking long holiday!!! Seriously just want to get back into studying mode and I know a lot of people are thinking "is she insane?" but I guess I am one of those who needs to do something almost all the time. Tutoring isn't enough...I want to study again and I will be able to do so in the beginning of October!!! *jumps up and down, up and down* (figuratively only cause my brain and body are half dead). So, warning: If I start smiling more or going a little more insane than usual, it is because starting from October onwards I'll be starting my online certificate studies on EGYPTOLOGY!!! *big stupid smile*

At least, before I start working until my degree officially starts (next year), I ended my first half of the holidays with two trips: Malacca and Bentong (please refer to annoying, stupid Facebook for pictures).

I think September's going to be a month of changes for me: getting a new laptop- all black baby!, first ever time working-seriously, first time studying via e-learning and a virtual blackboard- finally studying something I have been insane over the many years and most heartbreaking change will have to be- best friend, A, most likely going to UK by the end of September.

Going to miss her lots but it is her dream and I would not be her best friend if I stopped her from achieving her dream. So have fun over there, A and remember what we said about the webcams and hotties! =D




You said "wait" and I will even though it may hurt.

-chelle-